| last one for the night, i promise.. |
[Jan. 17th, 2007|11:06 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | home | ] |
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| |  restless | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the joshua tree | ] |
Okay. So i've been doing a lot of thinking sense everything happened this weekend.
I really haven't been happy a lot lately, and that's NOT okay.
I know how i want to feel..
During marching band this year, when i was stressed out or tired..or if i just felt like it, I would lay in the grass..the warm sun shining down on me, the cool grass giving me the occaisional chill. In those moments, other people would see me, realize it was a good idea, and lay beside me...we were all there for eachother, but we were free.
There was peace...no matter what the jerks around us were doing.
We were free. Free to think what ever and how ever we wanted. Free to stay, free to get up..no expectations, no drama, no dissapointment, no judgements..
I need that feeling. I need to feel free..i would even settle for partial freedom..
I need to know there are people supporting me, but I need to be able to make my own decisions...
and i plan to do so (to the best of my ablilities..) from now on.
I sent in my application fee for Western today.
step one, complete.
also, i didnt cry today. score. |
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| news flash |
[Dec. 10th, 2006|07:58 pm] |
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| | stressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Time to say goodbye: birghtman and bocelli | ] |
This just in
Stress level's in bridgetville are at an all time high. At this poit all potential remedies, even experimental ones, are welcome.
So let's break this baby back out and see if it helps any.
that's right...Bridget's trying transcendta...transcendtatl...transcendtalism...THAT WORD SHE STILL CANT SAY!! another try.
it's optional
it's experimental.
It's sures as heck worth another try. |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 11th, 2006|05:10 pm] |
Harmless Neighbor = prostitute murderer
Maw-maw + anurism = Brain surgery
Homework + studying= not even started
The more I try to transcend, the less i succeed....
Transcend....
the word has began to show up in english again...'cause AP kids are basket cases
But I am beggining to think their is no such actio as transcending
Thorough, Emerson, and all of those other ppl were just cooks on drugs who tryed to turn there buzzes into art..... |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 26th, 2006|09:01 pm] |
| You Are Lightning | 
Beautiful yet dangerous
People will stop and watch you when you appear
Even though you're capable of random violence
You are best known for: your power
Your dominant state: performing |
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| who knew the dead poets knew waht they were talking about |
[Jan. 22nd, 2006|10:33 am] |
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so, exams are finally over..this is the first weekend in ages that i haven't been stressed....and I don't feel even the slightest bit accomplished....which boils down to the fact that all those old men were right..the stress isn't worth it |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 7th, 2006|10:18 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | stressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | you're beautiful_james blunt | ] |
the rules of life say "don't sweat the petty things, and don't pet the sweaty things,"
so why is it that I stress out over everything that is petty...and if you sitck your hand in/on my face, chances are (dependingon who the circumstances), i will lick it so you move it...even if it's sweaty...........
I fail |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 17th, 2005|10:38 pm] |
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I recently have realized that playing my flute is one way I transcend...how sad is that..band really is everything |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 8th, 2005|09:25 pm] |
Breath.......
No one has ever died from failure.. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 6th, 2005|09:23 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  peaceful | ] |
"Chains shall we break
for the slave is our brother
and in his name all opression shall cease" |
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| A poet by no means.....which translates into "don't laugh at me or I'll stab you with a spoon" |
[Nov. 30th, 2005|05:42 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "In the middle" Jimmy Eat World | ] |
Ther rain comes down
in sheets that sting my skin
like smoking shrapnel, expelled from heaven.
But there's something in its presence:
renewal, release......perhaps change.
I open my arms wide
and turn my face to the sky.
I do love the rain
Its fragrance and relaxing rhythm,
The way it hits my window at night,
its moisture
Though my skin is cold and battered,
I refuse to seek shelter.
A thought leades to the playing
of a hymn from the sundy before in my head.
Rain is one way God shows his love.
He always seems to send it
when I need it
washing stress away.
I love the rain,
but i love God so much more,
He loves me the most.
I can feel it in the rain. |
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| Unrelated |
[Nov. 23rd, 2005|09:46 pm] |
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| |  it was crazy!! | ] |
This has nothing to do with this project whatsoever...but I thought my English class members who may read this would find it interesting..
So last night I was in Ann's Hallmark in Carolina Place when I got a glimpse of the mady working the register...
She looked just like an older version of mrs.J...I'm serious...she could have been her mom.
I know i must have stared..I didn't mean to..but I'm sure i did.....It was crazy
I had to do a double take to make sure it wasn't Mrs.J to begin with..
I wish you guys could've been there....just so you'd know how crazy the resemblence was |
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[Nov. 13th, 2005|11:54 am] |
| BRIDGET |
| B |
is for |
Bright |
| R |
is for |
Radiant |
| I |
is for |
Innocent |
| D |
is for |
Dreamy |
| G |
is for |
Gutsy |
| E |
is for |
Earthy |
| T |
is for |
Thrilling |
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| A marvelous lunch |
[Nov. 7th, 2005|11:44 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | relaxed | ] |
TOday I chose to eat lunch alone..... It was quite nice.
I sat on the steps behind the K building. I miss Tasha, but that, my friends is not the point of this entry.
While eating my (most likely tainted by fecal matter...thanks tyler) hamburger, I was completely at peace. It's odd. I had been somewhat anxious and nervous all day, but there, in the stone-ie (is that even a word??) cool of the concrete, shaded by one of my favorite buildings in the world things were different...
THere was a playful breeze that normally would have given me chills, but I soaked it in....I couldn't help it. I had hoped the sun would be shining on my place os respite, but the shade was just as nice.
NOt thinking of anything in particular, I had some of the most stimulating thoughts I have had in a long time. To Hell, with stress, who needs it!?!?
I had a really random thought:
DO you know how much fun it would be to put random sticky notes on the faculty cars.....Just to see if you heard anything about it...not negative thought, or harrasments...just random, uplifting senteces/sentence fragments............
I'm out.....
It's almost time for math...yuck, math |
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| Random picture |
[Oct. 31st, 2005|10:37 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  fatty go night night | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Express yourself | ] |
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| Tree Elaboration...as promised |
[Oct. 30th, 2005|12:18 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | two hearts...beat as one | ] |
It's hard to imagine how something so magnificant and rugid came from a dainty little seed. The mother tree simply drops a seed and with time (and a little help from the elements)a giant appears. THE mother tree doesn't nag, the father tree doesn't walk out on the baby trees and marry the ex-babysitter. Trees don't feel slightly guilty becuase they see their dtep dad as 10 times the father that their (as their mom would say) pollen donor is. A tree isn't taught honesty and then chewed out for using it. A tree's mother is never hypocritical. She never refuses to be with her little tree because the "pollon donor" is in the same area. A mother tree never calls her young tree a "selfish little girl" because, for once in her life, she'd like to have someone, no anyone, to be in the stands cheering for her.
Life would be easier if we were trees.......
THat's all I'm saying....
especially if trees were allowed to have twin trees that could hug them..... |
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